dangerously buzzing

why am I now fully awake? my body now energized from the day over charged can't sleep did I not do enough? oh here they come my inner demons the long I lay sleepless the crueler they get twisting plain conversations to insidious threats replaying my worst of my past memories troubleshooting every tiny problem over and over why is this my brain's programming another fault to add to the pile if I could silence it all could I even dare to sweetly dream