daddy where r u?

I looked for you everywhere and your nowhere to be seen, my eyes are hurting from this scene, u said you would come back, and yet u never did, do u really love me? or was I misunderstood?, I never had I father, who was there for me, I'm hurting can't u see the agony. daddy I miss u n I need you right now, mom in jail, and I'm trying figure shit out, I hate my brother because of you, I can't even look him in the eye I'm such a fool. what you did was wrong and it hurts me deeply, I'm trying to forgive but I can't forget you. it's not his fault that I don't understand you say you loved me then you stuck it in I cried for hours until I got older, I didn't understand what was going on, now I do and I'm standing strong. I blame him every day when it isn't his fault, you did this to me,and yet I think its his fault. I don't trust no men because of what you did, I have trust issues, which make it harder for me to trust you. I'm 14 now aren't you proud, even though your in prison you still send cards. I love you father that you don't understand, I'm in so much pain to the point I never wanna see you again. goodbye daddy I love you so, I hope I see you so I can say I told you so..............by India gardner 💗