daddy issues

Growing up you were my hero but only because i didnt understand manipluation But now im older with a boiling frustration. You say you love me but if drunk words are sober thoughts how can i trust that. Kids are supposed to come before love so how can you love me when you put love before me kids are forever but love is fleeting it feels like me and love are competing for the most attention. i wish love was tangible so i could see what it has that i dont. youre a dick but i cant leave because you have manupulated me to feel bad. im the last kid in the house so who will you have when your love is gone? when everything in your life has gone wrong who will be there? loving you hurts but youre my dad and i cant not love you your words are sharper than a blade used to cut diamonds. what happened to when we were young playing tag around the kitchen islands or going camping seeing the stars on the horizions we can fix this but you dont want to someday youll realize im all you have