Cycle of meaningless

Leave everyone i love love everyone who left Push them all away scared that I'm just a broken mess I build walls around myself I kept everyone far away Wanting to be by yourself Not wanting to stay I know i must sound like a mess Lost in my thoughts, I can't confess Making me lose the success I could've done If i was my best I think i might be a threat to myself Cold sweat running down my neck No reason to hate yourself , But I can't stop the wrack I try to escape the fight inside But there's nowhere to hide, nowhere to cry I get better for a while with some guide Then i feel that I'm getting dry Those who forgave me won't do it twice Trying to ask for advice But all i hear is just be nice if that was the case i wouldn't be a self-sacrifice