cut me open

There are tears that I want to shed but I refuse Tears that come from betrayal, pain and abuse That I am nothing but someone of use This pain hurts so much In the chest, my heart, I clutch How could I have been so stupid and dumb I want to die inside, I just want to be numb Numb to all the memories I cherished All for the thought of us to perish Take this knife and cut me open Rip out this heart that still loves you to stop it from growing It hurts, it stings and it burns This happens every single time, will I ever learn?