Curse or Destiny

Is this a curse, or am I reaping the fruit of what I sow? Is it because I love too much — or because I no longer know how to love at all? Is this just how it works? Or am I the stain ruining it all? Do I not deserve a little love — without feeling the need to repay it with every last piece of me? Am I a sinner? Or simply... human? Is this a curse? Or is it my destiny to ruin even the smallest happiness in this fragile little life of mine?