cup of life

my whole life I struggled with self worth. I would harm myself be cause I didn't look like every other girl I saw. No matter how many people told me the opposite of what I saw I never believed anyone. It didnt matter how close we were I know what I was. I saw the world through a blury magnified glass. I drank poison out of a cup thinking it was life but what I didn't relize is that it was toxic water harming me .