Cruel Trap

Does it please me or make me tremble? It's hard to live by the shadow They pity me, I was petty I have always stumbled Is it a chance to take and risk or gamble? Because choices were hollow I'm not tolerated, I'm hated I was always humbled The crowd is big enough to lift me up But I will stay low no matter what I'd rather be reticent and worthy Than being high and known by many The problem is mine to mind The barrier is mine to break The option is mine to pick The decision is mine to make Being critized is a fear I can't ignore My emotions are unclear, mixed up To find a light to a dark situation Is difficult to seek in a cruel trap