Cravings

I'm not in love but the need to be held closely weakens me .. It draws my heart to consider even if I'm still confused.. I want to be treated nicely and in a cute way .. But I'm not looking for a commitment I enjoy the lonely life too much to sacrifice it for anyone.. I'm happy being lonely but I won't deny the thirst to be held close... I try my best to forget these cravings but I'm still attached to them .. I want to but the fear of making another big mistake hunts me ... I crave for both loneliness and commitment but I'm afraid to admit my lonely self is winning this battle