Crashing down

Falling so long not far to go till I hit the bottom SPLAT numb What if none of this matters I doubt I'd make it passed Twenty dark thoughts I give my heart to people who I know are just gonna break it accepting the love I think I deserve Playing catch with a ghost missing him but saying "I hate you some much, aren't you my dad no you're not" but you are and I want you here but you don't night isn't when I sleep instead I think about everything I did wrong thinking I did nothing right I don't have much fight in me Put my emotional stability in a person I know isn't stable making bad moves rain falls can't tell if maybe tears fall wash away the pain wash away the memories rain hits the concrete and so do I blood flows with the rain