CPTSD

It's as if the world still spins and i am still in one place...the past. I can never get over what has hurt me so deeply. It's something I wish never to talk about...ever! It's like that dark cloud hovering over me only to make the rain mock my emotions. Either stress or tears are what gives me a muscle ache only so I can't move... I can't move... frozen still in time it seems like. Although I feel what she had done to me just won't go away. I feel a part of me wishes her suffering instead of well. And with my healing there is still only time to kill.