Confusion

I never feel happy, I never feel sad All I ever feel is want for the life I had Everything feels wrong, nothing is the same Nothing feels right, not even my own name I don't know what I want in life I've not a clue it gives me strife Do I want to be a teacher? Do I want to be a gamer? An animator, an author, a designer? I want to follow my dreams Yet when I do, my head is filled with nothing but screams I don't know anymore My life feels like a never ending war I'm so tired of trying I'm so tired of crying Why must everyday I feel like dying?