confused

Your behavior plunges me into deep confusion; I simply desire a clear understanding of your desires. I do not wish to vanish from your life, but your actions seem directed towards it, causing me a pain that perhaps you do not perceive. Although affection towards you persists, its persistence bewilders me, as I aspired to an enriching relationship with you. I was willing to give myself completely, but I feel that I do not receive the same in return. Uncertainty about your true desires drives me to distance myself. I struggle between the happiness you brought me and the awareness that my attention was one-sided. I try to dilute your presence by seeking connection with other people, but you persist in my mind. I am bewildered by how you managed to captivate me in such a short time. I longed for our relationship to be genuinely beautiful, but doubts assail me.