Confines

As the tears run down my face, I feel like such a disgrace. How can I hide this pain inside, no one to hold no place to hide. The tears remind me of the pain, 1 wipe them off but they come again. My mind it wonders my heart it aches, my life it crumbles and now it brakes. This pain it kills I want to be numb, 1 should of known I feel so dumb. My stomach sick my knees are weak, 1 try to talk but I can not speak. As the time ticks by the pain runs deep, my eyes stay open as I try to 1 sleep. Just thrown away without a thought, the words they sink in and seem to rot. The silence kills me inside and out, its far to quiet' I want to shout. 1 know where I am but I feel so lost, I found who I am but at what cost? Something inside just tears me apart, is it my mind or the loss of my heart? The empty confines of the shell I'm in, bag me to forget and start again.