Confession (Part 1)

Self-blaming, still have doubts All of the bad words came out I realized that all of the things I had done for the past few years were not right With all this, do I still have a bright future? Why didn’t you take revenge on me? Why did you just sit there quietly? If I say sorry, I know you guys wouldn’t forgive me But if you forgive me, Would the person I love accept me? Idon't deserve forgiveness I know I don’t deserve happiness Keeping my distance from the others: Did you know that I had a lover? But I chose to leave him Because I love him I understand that he doesn’t have enough time for me Because he cares about his family So I set him free And let him be I can’t forgive myself I keep blaming myself I learned that you just need to control your temper Love must be shared It’s okay "You just need to calm down" must be obeyed That gold is still coated in black My old innocent self—I want it back This is the first time that I have confessed Will my friends be less? I’m afraid of falling in love again and making a commitment to this Because of my insecurities But still, I have hopes for you and me But still, you don’t deserve me Past mistakes I regret Will you leave me? Let’s make a bet