confession

Being committed to a person scars me . How can I be committed to another while I can't be committed to myself today am promising my self life and tomorrow death. How can I be committed to someone else while I can't love my self will I be able to love that person. I don't know what love is I've never felt love . Love has no definition in my life. My heart is full of heart aches. I got trust issues .How do I express feelings to others when the owner dosnt understand them .My heart has been broke a lot of times I don't even trust my self with it . No one would want to be committed to a narcissist phycho girl with commitment issues . I've given up trying to fix myself for love I'm done chasing love .. love will find me and if it doesn't that's OK .. ..Its said when you love someone you will love them with thier flows and scars but will you ???? will you love a narcissist with commitment issues..I put my heart into you as I wait for you my lover.