Conceal

As a child  I was always taught  That vulnerability  Was something to be fought  When I was down I had nowhere to go  I was constantly forced To put on a show I forced myself  To always wear a disguise,  Because I was afraid of what I was going to find  When I looked into their eyes But it’s impossible,  Especially at my age, To constantly keep my emotions  Restrained and caged It will be so sudden, When on a stormy night, I no longer find myself  Filled with the need to fight  My emotions come rushing  Hitting me right where it aches I feel a rising in my chest As something in me awakes  But this time  I don’t push it away  I do something different,  And instead I let it stay  So here I sit  Alone in the dark  While the rain pounds on the roof  And my feelings begin to embark  They start to begin A journey of their own  Trying so desperately  To take me home   But, once again, As I feel myself begin to let go  Light enters my room  And I can’t let it show