Complicated emotions

I hate that I can't cry when I want to It takes such a long time and it's all because of you Not seeing you again eats me up inside every day And it's not your doing. We'll IA meet one day Our memories were bittersweet My mind shows them to me on repeat I will always consider these as a gift Which you've left with me when we had to shift The most sweetest and the most beautiful memories we ever shared together But making new ones with you will be even better