Collapse of love

And i stepped on the stage, stepping close to my life long wish. All eyes on me but my eyes desperate in search of you. And then this selfish me wished to never have you because stepping close to myself I started to seek your lame validation and pulled you myself away. Away from what I wanted, Away from all I wished, away from everything, and prayed to have you. Which felt like nothing. It was just running away from my life I wanted. To you, who never loved me. And that's how my mind got me, And that's what made me collapse, for your love in front of everyone. and this stubborn me collapsed to beg for this love...