cold love

winter has yet to come and I am frozen. not by the cold air of a stiff breeze. but of a heart not chosen. my heart does cease. the Sun beats down and still I turn towards it. hoping to catch a glimpse of light. alone in shivering I sit. as if forever night. why does my love leave me my heart bleeding. my life draining for my very soul. her love is ever fleeting. I will never be whole. why can I not reach for my dreams to come. why can I not have tomorrow. why is Joy only for some. but me only sorrow. her heart is broken as her spirit is in two. my heart is broken also in many forms. no longer a real I love you. to calm the storms. I will stare at the night as I shiver in silence. I will cast my gaze alone to call her. if she answers not violence. May that are love might stir.