cold feelings

I wish you could understand the way I felt , I wish you could be able to listen to my heartbeats , for once I wanted you to know how my body gets too cold that it felt like my soul has left , I wish you could understand how a person died despite being alive , I wish you could understand how a person giggling outside when there is a loud scream inside , I wish you could understand how it feels when your hands tremble just to hear the name of yours , I wish you could understand how I couldn't able to breath just by taking a glance of yours , I wish you could understand I have lost love in searching of love