Cloud over my head

My life is full of cloud days. The sun comes out when I think something positive. Just for a minute, there is a break drove. I search for that rainbow. So all my dreams can come true. But there is thunder in my head. To wake me up from the nightmare in my life. Will there be sunny down? Or this is what I get. Look for the sun to hit my face. I feel cold inside of my soul. I need warmness in my soul. Just like my heart. Every piece of my body crying for love. When the rain hit my head. It is like every blessing coming my way. But the clouds over my head. It is a shield that keeps my blessing away. I trying to hide from my cloud. But the clouds keep following me. I hear the birds singing. But the clouds are hiding paradise. I don't want a cloud day. I want a sunny day. Walk with an umbrella so I can catch every blessing falling from the sky. Maybe I have to pray more. So the clouds can wash over from the rain. I don't want to cry anymore. I want to be set free from the clouds over my head. ...