Closed in

Do you ever feel like the world is closed up on you? It is like you can breathe. Whatever you do, you feel like gave up. I feel trapped in my doubt. Holding on to my dream. But the surrounding wall closed in on me. Trying to push all this native off me. But it has a hold on. I just looked for a way out to be myself. There are so many doors, not enough space in my life. Try to push my way through life without fail myself. I have to break through this wall. It separated me from the future. I am stuck in a world. That always pushed me back. Looking for a way out so I can breathe. I don't feel anything. My body is numb to the touch. I need the air of hope. So I can push through all these things to stop me from living. I am trapped in this world and know where to go. My past has me hostage. The only place I wanted to be was a place where I could fly and be myself. I am reaching for some things. Maybe is my further. I lived in the president. But my place belongs to the future. My past is closed up on me. So I am looking for something that I can use to push me out of all these native feelings. So I can be free. My life is more than my past. I am one step closer to being me.