chronicly ill

I hate myself With passion, I hate myself My soul is disgusting And even my body makes me suffer I don't want to be ill I want to be able to do things I don't like me My body hurts everyday And so I hurt my body I can't do this As tears rolled down my eyes My vision blurred Pain I don't want to be in this body It's wrong Please I don't want to need help But please help me But you don't know You will never know Because I choose to let my tears fall Only when I am alone I can't be weak Vulnerable I'm already broken Why me? My body hates me And I hate my body