Charade

Tik Tok, shoot your best smile Tik Tok, the charade will only last a while Time is ticking while everyone holds a knife Stab at the moment no one looks right This parade we play is called happy family Buckle up, destruction will be plenty They embrace you with a heavenly smile I felt the terror in my eyes The mask is on and the choreography begins Everyone on their position, counting in With each step I see their distorted faces Mocking me through every trace And once I put myself first, I'm the selfish bitch The moment I try to cut ties And ignore their horrendous implies They shot their words like needles sharp Calling me a narcissist under my guard Altho I won't let them see me defeated The wound has been inflicted "Everyone will leave you" "I feel sorry for the ones that can't leave you" "Everyone secretly despises you" Words I can't prevent Wants to make me break and bent I know some people see my side Yet I can't help but wonder if they were right I always felt like a burden, The verification creating a bigger hurdle I can't think straight, hands shaking in the rain Apparently I play victim and mental games How does one deal with this situation I guess this is my creation