Chaos

The chaos in my mind is so deep that i go here and there to calm my mind from the chaos within but the places where i think I'll find peace, creates even more chaos within me on some days i am the best version of me but on some days I couldn't Even recognise that is it even me? The chaos within is so loud that even my mind doesn't know where to find peace that's why ot choses a piece of paper to let it out