change

People say that what happened to you is what makes you who you are today and maybe that's why I hate myself I hate what happened to me I didn't deserve it and they know damn well I didn't either but who they were then and are today won't change nor what happened to me but I think I'm still holding onto the chance that it can that things will change people tell me that what happened to me I didn't deserve and I know but something inside me tells me otherwise all those years of suffering just to become someone i despise no one will ever understand the pain,suffering and the violence i endured to become this become my worst enemy whom i hate and despise and have to deal with every day.