caught in between.

caught in between actually not will I make the right choice probably not. probably will but I between I stand still. I loved this man for a while but he stays in denial. met this other guy I've been dating for a while. I love the first but in love with the second but I don't wanna have to keep guessing. the first is comfort due to the history the other guy brings out the best in me. the first one I loved never loved me. the second guy I gotta keep guessing. I know I deserve more in life then the first guy. but the second guy I don't think he really would like. a girl like me because he likes independent type. I'm an need attention and gotta get conformation every now again like, gotta tell me if I'm doing thing right type of girl. if u do something different I'll wonder why and get caught in my thoughts going 1000 times. part of me want to disappear but I feel like the second one is my desire and need but can't just turn my back on the first thing. maybe I should just walk away now to keep my feelings away from everything. keep them bottled in to miss hurting should wait it out or miss the final decision now. I dont know in due time we will find out but gots to go now.