Cash in resistance

complications of feeling afar - the soul depletes while other evils rise - this can't be it, how can it be?- confusion sets, and still I see nothing - making sense of it all is time wasting- On the other side, there is something beautiful - it's too far away for my reach - the distance is so great, and the feeling is there - something keeping me from doing the unthinkable - a presence that keeps the bullet out of the chamber - a force that keeps the knife from my neck - The resistance is powerful - Thinking hurts so much - crying doesn't help - chest pains come and go - my body wants to give up and just let go - Yet the resistance is powerful -