captured

I captured a moment without despair. held it prisoner for nearly 12 years. relaxed my grip just to let it slip into the open air. found hell and began to beg. left empty-handed without even a word said. my tortured heart bled till it had not even it beats. futile In all attempts to retrieve it. I saw it day by day just out of reach and still couldn't steady myself enough to retrieve it. so unsettling, so out of hope. I couldn't even gather words to be spoken. I broke, so I was rattled to my core, and I choked on my intentions. found myself stuck from not wielding forgiveness. upsessed and overturned after losing at this. what captured my heart. brutally debowed my soul, it broke this man, and destroyed all hope. freeze framed memories eat me alive. another moment and another prisoner, one a lover, and one a sinner. captured guilt now to collide with time. capture me before I reside into dark memories. out of my mind.