can't wait anymore...

I thought of life again and again, but still I couldn't find what I did so wrong, I had feelings so strong though I couldn't wait for death to knock on my door, by the end of the days my eyes would hurt, what Hurt the most was when you cry but there no tears anymore, when you wanna die but you can't kill yourself. so you have to live to suffer even more... I can't wait for death to visit me anymore.