Bye

I can't say I didn't love you because that would be a lie. Nor can I say I hate you because you taught me to love in a way I didn't know existed. You were the apple of my eye, but I wasn't the apple of your eye, as you always told me. You know, I'm going to miss you... well, not so much you personally, but how you made me feel. I felt secure in myself. I don't hate you, but I don't love you either. Just as you taught me to love you, you also taught me to hate you. I just hope that wherever you are, you're doing well. This isn't a "see you later," it's a final goodbye. Just as you fixed everything that was wrong, you broke something inside me. Goodbye forever, my beautiful boy... I promise not to look for you anymore, not because I don't miss you and don't love you, but because it hurts that my love means nothing to you. For me, those two words, "I love you," are everything.But I promise to be strong and swallow my tears, not to let the pain consume me. Maybe I'll tell my pillow about you, just to release my emotions and never cry for you again. Even though the pain is overwhelming me, I promise, I promise to forget you, even if it's in silence, and miss you only in my thoughts.