But I'm only a child

Am I alive? The person in the mirror He's pale Lips dry and bloody Hair greasy and too long Eyes with purple circles A body that gets thinner I am trapped In this body that seems to die Disintegrate My body wants to die It hurts My body hurts I'm only a child But I have to bleed to see that I am not dreaming I feel like reality and dream are mixed in I try to stay alive but my body and mind Try to kill me every night