Burning Thoughts

The thoughts I have are from him he's the reason I hate myself but also the reason I'm still going I don't really know how to explain it better than that he makes things more fun dare I say the only burning thought is what if he was gone no one to talk too when I'm alone the only one by my side would be me but no one really cares so why should I even be here if he's gone his insults are just a hit of pain when he's nice and shows some kindness he can be the best person to lean on I may be the monster but he's the fire inside