burning fire

As I sit in complete darkness trying to make sense of everything around me, it is hard to keep up with anything of the world around me. My body is aching without no sense of life, like if I am a dead corpes with an immerse fire burning inside, killing everything that is keeping this body still standing. How can the world be so cruel? Why is it that no matter how hard I have been trying to stay alive and fit in with this world. I keep getting kicked back down to the ground. My body keeps burning, and my aching muscles just keep causing more pain. Nothing makes sense anymore. Everyone around me just keeps passing by as the burning sensation just keeps getting worse. It's like my insides are an active volcano destroying all my organs. Everyone around me keeps talking, smiling, and trying to make a conversation. But I can't help and stare deep into darkness as if they were not around. it's as if I can't ask for help, some cold ice water to maybe ease the burning pain. I see as everyone laughs at me or looks at me like I am crazy. It makes me wonder if I should just end it all instead of trying to wait and see if the burning fire inside me eases its way out. Maybe a kind soul will notice before it's too late.