broken seams

beyond broken torn at the seams tears run down my cheeks along with many shattered dreams feeling stupid for letting you in just to take everything from me. while your living life enjoying our daughter while alone within these four walls I'm left to be. how can you be so hateful.. evil? completely heartless? here I am feeling like my heart's being ripped from my chest. teach my how to let go so easily to make the sadness & hurt leave. never would I have thought u would do such I still don't want to believe. I suppose I always try to see the good even when there's one to be seen. I don't know how to feel at this point sad depressed happy or everything on between