broken heart

I knew that this would happen, that you would break my heart. It was stupid of me not to listen. I was stupid from the start. You told me you were different; now I know you are all the same. I'm in a lot of pain. It's hard for me to hate you. It's hard for me not to care, because always in my mind she is going to be there. I want to forget it; I'm going insane. Am I listening to my heart or thinking with my brain? I wish I knew why you did it, what you were thinking at the time, but then I know I don't want to know anything more would drive me insane. I love you but I wish I was strong. You don't deserve me now. Hopefully you can prove me wrong. I'll always love you, but you have really broken my heart. Hope you know how to fix it because believe me I can't