Broken Friendship

My heart hurts and I feel nauseous to my stomach as the feeling of hatred surrounds me one glance and everything is red and my eyes go dark I ask for understanding but you don't provide instead you push me away and go silent you welcome me with bitterness and cold shoulders and they come here to the table and you bring them welcome with delightful and laughter and yet I sit here with hurt and disgust. once did anything matter to you? known you for years and years of mistakes and hurt but one small thing and you leave just like everyone else does hurt was never done to you yet you make it seem like it was forget my existence for you know how I mentally feel and it's making it worse by you and your intentions down the drain was our friendship and down the drain is your guilt and shame for putting it on me instead of understanding I hope you get what you want in life but I don't wanna be apart of it