broken.

you can trust me , you said and I gave you a nervous smile. I'd been hurt by so many before but I'd known you for a while so I fell in love with you and I taught myself to trust because you said I could do that and I believed in us. you broke my heart in pieces sometimes you acted like you didn't care or you'd pick a fight to create distance you'd refuse to fight fair and then we'd make up again I'd tell myself you didn't mean what you'd said but a part of me felt jaded a part of my heart felt dead. when we were bad we were horrible but most of the time we were great. and I believed you when you said you loved me I believed in a romantic fate. then you left bruises on my arms you threw me into the wall. I stayed with you and we vowed we'd do better but my tears just kept falling. we did better for a while I gave you a baby, then another two. and today you told me the worst thing of all. "I have nothing left to give you." that didn't include your wallet or physical items you meant your heart. you meant you'd given up on us that you had set yourself apart. you have your eyes fixed on someone else that someone isnt me. maybe I should be ecstatic but I can't believe you'd do this to me. ..