breather

this was my home, my home was destructive & I started to fall too. jack became my o2 filling up my cup for breakfast lunch and dinner. I torn down the foundation now I scarp what I can to rebuild, I' stayed high because my reality is tampered w. tampered by my own hand. I drowned myself in my addiction I thrown away parts of me I'm fishing out of the deep end. I don't want to sink our love ship. I'm on a battleship I'm sea sick, it's stalling. my origins are cooked. I don't want my brain fired . this is painful watching you, I will get out of here but it's so unstable I'm shaking with every breathe I take these voices are telling me I'm empty for the last time. I sit in the room looking at my tattoo I cried a river praying to god I am wearying I'm broken my parents ripped it out. I chased them I didn't do tract but I ran a marathon endlessly I broke both my ankles I still ran till I crawled in pain weeping in agony. I ran as far an as fast you demanded now I'm a maze runner I'm tired f the dead ends you leave me w. I'm done goodbye I want to live. I won't be the same old gal you manipulated. I'm filled w saddened and regret I can't hold him close now we're at war w each other I'm not happy w this I want