Breaking down inside

Lord dearest, why is life so crazy? What is it I did that life is this way? Please, I can't have it like this. Please, Lord, don't let it be this way. I mean, I adore my baby, my fur baby. And I might have to let him go. Everyone thinks of me as nothing but trouble. Why, Lord, why is it like so. Can't you see it so I need to know why. Why is it like this? Please don't let it be this way. I just can't it breaks me into pieces, and no one knows it. I mean, I'm literally breaking down inside.