breaking chains

I fear becoming you.. I try to believe this is something I can do. but sometimes I'm not sure if that's true. I think back at all the times I was let down expecting you to be my rock, my ground. but disappointment and despair I found. I know you tried to be good for us but at some point, we stopped being enough. being a mom and wife, it's tough, I never understood that stuff.. but now, as I lay here with 3 kids of my own, I'm married .. im grown.. and you're gone. I see the struggles you tried to fight but you took flight. now I lay in bed at night, begging God for insight I don't want to fail like you did I want to be here for my kids the harder I fight, the harder it seems to get. now I know why u didn't think u could do this shit. but I won't give up, and I won't back down because in the fear, motivation I found.