Blueberries

Found myself eating blueberries again, Don't know how I got here, what's in my brain? I can't like others if I don't like myself, But how can I like me if I betray me like this? Promised it would not happen But that just seems to sharpen All the repressed emotions That now are turning ferocious. Feels like a horse is kicking me; Stomping, running, jumping. Try to get it to love me, But feels like I'm slumping. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Shake. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Faint. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Breathe. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Screech. I gotta get out, Just turn it around, Don't think about that, Just stop that scratch. No one's looking at you, You're gonna get through, We'll meet in LA, There can be a way. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Stop. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Sob. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Drink. It's blueberries, blueberries, blueberries, Think. Has it always been this way? Were you here from start to end? Did I consider you my friend, When you couldn't even stay?