Bipolar

it went from fits of fury to put outbursts of rage. to you I'm just a disease. thought only hell would accept me. turned all my motives to God demanded he heal me. Dr. said here take these. fuck you. I don't want your poison. how can this be? I got my head in my knees. my mind is not at ease. I'm so displeased. I say how I feel everyone disagrees. I feel unsafe. I'm such a disgrace. get out my face. demons telling me to kill myself someone help! sometimes I wanna scream or flee. I'm running on e. I need to feel less. I'm so stressed. always depressed. getting dressed is a struggle. it's been years since I let out a chuckle. someone knuckle up. cause I do not give a fuck. I'm constantly in a rage. I have not slept in days. I'm scared when does this end? Dr. said never. guess it's me and bipolar forever.