Beyond the facade

My thoughts are blank, I can't think no more My mindset seems shady , maybe am a bad person ... Lost within,but a walking figment, An antagonist who seems antagonized. Here goes the good girl, The star girl has lost her shine. Happiness an illusion.. That heart of gold , suddenly turns fake ... Shall I start over ? Or shall the pretence go on. If I should smile , would it even be real ? Or maybe it's not worth the shot For a girl who lost her shine, Everyone expects so much. Should I just chain the past and meet everyone's expectations? Or should I face it and bear the shame. that comes with it ?