beyond sadness

it's beyond sadness at this point it's anger it's envy it's pain like a black hole opened up in the middle of my world and it's swallowing everything I love in its path to get to me it's taking away the things I've worked so hard for and it's ripping and pulling at my heart trying to steal what's left of it from me and this heaviness in my chest refuses not waver this pain and hatred of life is taking what it can from me beating me from every angle as a try to hold all I love close to me but I'm loosing my grip and what I once had is being once again riped from my arms and I have never been strong enough to hold on soon all that will be left will be me and on that day I will finally let go and relax my muscles finally I will be at peace and this war with my shattered soul will be over no longer will my peices fight no longer will I need to cry