believing

the feeling that i had ,in the sky smiling so proud saying things I never thought I would say never care ,payed attention to what my peers say ,all the wait lifted and no chains in my head 😔,I would cry not cause of pain but the believe that I had ,it was my love and I was so addicted I could do anything even move the mountains. it was not dugs nor love for women..it was an unexplainable homonym inside my heart the one I had when I close my eyes and Neil down and bow my head....I felt so real I was floating, felt like there were people around me who had my back ,they were so big and powerful buy in a beautiful way . until I wanted more and turned my back.not realizing of what that would do ....and now I'm trying to get back but the pain keeps on pulling me the wait was dropped on top of my shoulders that am busy dragging ...how can I pray like that again,how can I breath and hear that melody am scared, lord I sorry for wanting more then u💔😞