before you know it.

.How do you know when your brain an mind an heart have finally become drowned by these dark thoughts. How do you know when the fight between so called good an evil is over. Or you cant grasp what's right or wrong tho Your thoughts become plan's. And your only fight is between which way to go is the only thing in those thoughts. You see this happens so fast for people with BPD. You think you didn't see it coming? How do you think the loving soul that is hanging or laying in his/her blood seen it coming. I like to think that when its time no one you nor them even seen it coming. It is so disguised by evil that the only thing that God can do is make it happen so quickly that the whole process was painless. But then again No one gets to know how did they feel? No one gets to be there to explain how they thought after. No one is there to tell you the fights become to much the voice over came an the evil was let in after knocking an taking over your thoughts. Its wierd that I am here today its like I wake up from dreams so real that I feel as if I literally killed myself every day in my sleep to escape the pain the world causes me cause one more day on earth only feels like one more day in hel