Before you know it

You figure you're 18, okay You wanna go outside, alright First, stumble into a fight Thinking you'll be okay and alright Then they say it's all in your brain But I didn't buy a ticket for this train Before you know it, It feels like the world is falling apart I guess I'll have to take it all to heart Now you failed me again What am I doing up at 3 am? Now I have been counting the stars Hoping one leads to an answer that I want to hear. I want to stop being dug into a grave. While walking the earth knowing I'm not the devil's slave. Before you know it You are put on a million pills Knowing you didn't want to work at the mills Now you failed me again What am I doing up at 3 am? I have never seen a 17-year-old in my office before Those words are not for the faint of heart Yet those words tore me apart As I stand as a mystery I can't even think of my history Before you know it You are crying on your bed Praying it is not in your head Now you failed me again What am I doing up at 3 am? Doesn't your sunburn hurt? It looks bad My tolerance is a lot higher than it used to be Like it just came out of the blue. It doesn't feel right anymore Like I might be an underscore. Before you know it You don't feel right Why does the world seem so bright Now you failed me again What am I doing up at 3 am?