Before I Finally Let You Go

Maybe one day I’ll heal from you, maybe the weight you left on my chest will loosen… but I will never forget what existed before the goodbye. Before I moved on, I broke in ways you will never comprehend. I cried for you until the nights blurred together, until my heartbeat felt heavier than my thoughts. I cried in silence, where only the dark listened, and I cried in front of people who never understood how deeply you were woven into me. You left chaos in my mind— panic that came without warning, fear that wrapped itself around my ribs. I became a prisoner inside my own thoughts, overthinking every memory, every word, every moment that once felt safe in your presence. I blamed myself for your absence. I questioned my worth, tore myself apart trying to understand why I was never enough for you. I reshaped my heart to fit a love you never bothered to hold. And the memories… they became the sharpest wounds. Your pictures felt like echoes of a life I was forced to leave behind, your smile a reminder of everything I lost trying to keep you. Maybe one day I’ll be fully free. But before I was— I shattered quietly for you, carrying a pain you will never truly recognize.